Recently a great man in my life made me think about my own life. (which hasn't been hard to do lately but this really struck me) I always feel like this man is talking directly to me and he is secretly a
Hero and can read my mind. GET OUT OF MY HEAD!! but no.. actually stay in there because everytime you teach you affect my life so i guess you can stay. like a parasite. well no actually because parasites do not bring any benefit to their host and can actually harm their host.. stay tuned for the next episode of Discovery Planet where we will learn about the different layers of the ozone.
He compared our lives to that of a 'guitar player' but not any guitar player. the guitar players that think they are guitar players because they can play three cords and three songs. Everytime they get near a guitar they pick it up and play the same song and how it gets super annoying. They don't take the time to learn their instrument they don't spend their friday and saturday nights mastering their craft. years roll by and they can still only play those three cords and the same three songs. They are always playing the 'same old tune' never anything new. Eventually their guitar gets put up and just becomes something they use to do or something they get out every once in awhile. This is how christians look to the world sometime. We are singing the same old tune. We never grow spiritually. we get out our bibles everyonce in awhile and the world never sees any change. They never see any growth. We know our 'three songs' very well. we know our few scriptures very well and that is enough for us to say that yes we are a christian because we can play 'three cords'
As I turn and look at my own guitar sitting in the corner of my room and can't help but think of how true that is for me. I go in spurts. i am very dedicated and obedient for almost three weeks and then it fizzles and then i go back to exactly the way i was. Recently my life was shook upside down by the truth. My eyes were open to my lack of love for others and my selfishness and my constant complaining and the need to tear others down so i can build myself up. I was changed after that. i was no longer the same woman!! i left that confrontation broken and devastated and sick over the person i had become. My new me was going very well for awhile but now i see her coming to the surface. I had slipped back into my old ways because of my lack of discipline to keep her subdued. (i tried to silence her with chocolate but she got out of control) so now im back at square one. God is trying to deepen my faith and make me grow but im doing the same old thing everyday. i can't get passed them, i can't grow because i'm still a baby who needs milk and can't get onto more solid food.
So I haave decided (well actually a friend decided for me haha) that I need accountability partner/partners. not just anyone but people who are better than me spiritually. people that can look at me and tell me the truth that are not doing the same thing as me. Honestly when he told us to get accountability partners I couldn't think of anyone to ask. Not that I think that I'm so great and everyone is beneath me but i just don't know anyone that isn't my equal. I look at the people in my life and I feel like we are all at the same level. I'm going to pray about it and wait.
I am off to keep the evil Amber subdued. maybe I will try ice cream this time.. :)
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I think God makes a Great acountability partner! Hope you have a Great evening!.......In Christ's Love.......Monic